Day 30

Welp, today's the last day of my fast.  Don't think I'm not excited!!  I am!  Its just going to be so weird to start eating again.  I mean, what does chewing feel like again?  What's it going to be like to actually have muscle strength?  Hmmmm...we'll see.  My first meal is going to consist of a banana and some salad.  Yeah, I know.  I'm very adventurous.  But anyway...I have to start out slowly.  My body isn't used to having to digest food and I need to start introducing foods to it slowly so that I don't get sick.  And I also so I don't begin to eat eat eat eat eat eat!
So what have I learned during this fasting experience?
Where do I begin?
1)  God is amazing!
2)  God is amazing!
3)  God is amazing!
That's all I've really learned.  There have been insights into the past and ways that I act, how I deal with emotions, but the main thing I can say about this fast is that it brought me back to God.  I'm not a "godly" woman yet  by any stretch of the imagination, but I was shown who I was living for - who I still sometimes live for - me.  And that should not be!  I have gained some victory in some sinful areas of my life.  I cannot be slacking on guarding my mind on these sins because they come back very easily.  There is just a general sense of purpose again. 
Speaking of purpose, I had a FANTASTIC Thursday!  I met with a woman who works with the Indian population in Louisville.  She is the head of a people group organization and I was asking her whether there's any work going on with Russians in L'ville, etc etc. and she gave me some amazing contacts.  She also opened my eyes to see how I could engage Russians around the US and perhaps work for NAMB before I go international.  I would much prefer to be practicing for the cross cultural missions in my home culture before I go off and minister in another culture.  It opened my eyes to the possibilities in the US while God has me here. He's placed me where he's placed me for a reason and I need to figure out what that is.
Also, I am now leading a children's choir at my church, grades 2-5.  I'm thinking that's going to be fun! 
And I've been asked to be a youth sponsor for M-Fuge.  Don't know how that's going to go over with my work schedule but I'm praying about it.
Wow!
Apparently, God has opened up some areas of ministry I can be involved in both in my local church and in my city.  I am very excited about what God would have me doing, and at the same time I need guidance as to what I should accept so that I don't try to work in areas that God doesn't want me in.

Physically, since Dec 24th 2009, I am down 41lbs.  I lost 17lbs in my 10 day fast in Jan and 24lbs in my 30 day fast.  I put on a T-shirt today from Hard Rock Cafe Louisville that used to be really tight.  Its very very loose right now.  :)  I'm incredibly grateful for the weight loss God has given me and hope and pray that he'll continue to help me lose.  I have 24lbs left until I hit my international missions goal.  I'm planning on 6 months to get that off (so Nov), but I'm thinking that once I start exercising again, I'll lose it faster than that.  Then I'm only 15lbs away from my ultimate goal.  I can't believe that God is helping me do this.  I believed for so long that I was incapable of losing it.  Its only by God's grace, let me tell you!

So closing thoughts on a 30 day fast. 
1)  If you do not have a personal relationship with Christ, please please please - I'm begging you - seek someone out who does and ask them about it.  Ask me about it.  I would LOVE to share with you how you can have purpose and peace and freedom in your life.  My relationship with Christ is the only thing in my life worth anything.  Everyone I know will die, everything I have will break and fade and can be destroyed but my relationship with my creator cannot be touched by anything in this world. 
2)  This is by no means the end of this blog nor the end of my spiritual journey.  I hope to be able to come back to this and share with everyone people who have come to Christ, insights given by the Holy Spirit and general victories and struggles in my Christian life.  But for now, I'm going to grocery shopping!  :)