So I'm moving to Chicago!

Its official.  It has been for awhile now.  I'm moving to Chicago and the time is coming up fast.  Yet I have no job, no apt and no timeline.  I feel that the Lord has given me a general time that I'll be moving and He will fulfill it in His way.
Right now I'm struggling with several things.  The first is the easiest to talk to identify.  I'm scared stupid.  I can do the moving thing, the new city thing, the new job thing and the apartment thing.  I've done all that before.  But what I really don't want to do is the hard stuff.  Finding a new church, new friends, a new support group and I'm mostly scared of doing what God has called me to do there.  Make friends, share Him, disciple, church plant.  I never really understood what Paul was saying in 2 Corinthians when he says of God, "My grace is sufficient for you."  Over the past year there can be no other description for my life.  God's grace is the only thing I have.  Its the only security I can find.  It is the only thing that will give me the strength to do this.  Ministry scares the crap out of me because it takes time, it takes effort and it takes emptying myself and letting people close.
That brings up the second thing I'm struggling with.  Every time I go to church these days, I find myself on the brink of tears.  I'm an unstable emotional ball of TNT just waiting to blow up.  I realized today how much I love the people around me.  I never felt like this leaving NE.  I love the people in NE dearly, but they're mostly family.  The people I've met here seem more than family to me.  I love my friends and my church family so very very much.  It breaks my heart to think of having to say good-bye to all of them.  I won't be able to stop crying when the day comes because I can't stop crying right now.  I love everyone so much that it hurts.  Is this the way Paul felt when he left Ephesus?  Are these the feelings that he had for all the churches he had planted along the way?  I guess so.  I love these people and I want to see them grow in the faith.  I want to see them reach out and share the gospel, take Christ to the all!  What an epiphany!  Well, that's encouraging at least.  To feel in some way the same as Paul when he left his churches makes me feel like these feelings are not a bad thing, not a sign of weakness, not outside of God's will.
All for now.  Tootles