What we truly love.

I think that sometimes the sins we love are the very ones which keep us from getting what our hearts really desire.  Check it out in your own life.  What is a sin that you know you should stop but you love?  You cling to it.  You crave it.  You're lost in it.  Does it have something to do with what your heart desires most?  Mine does.  I have used that sin to fill the longing.  I have pushed God's timing out of my life and I have filled it with what I want, when I want it and how I want it. It is so sick and twisted if you really think about it.  There is therapy for this kind of thing!!

Perhaps the longing in our hearts that we fill with sin could be filled with real peace if we sought after God as we ought.  I know the longings in my heart would be true and correct if I pursued my God as I ought.  

The pursuit of God is what the human heart was created for.  Let me not add my own petty substitutes instead of seeking after the creator and lover of my soul!  

Post Fast Update

Hey everyone.
Here's a quick post-fast update.
I swelled up like a balloon at the end of my 2nd week of eating.  But I am happy to report that I had to be in the bathroom every hour over the past 2 days so I'm back down to only 8lbs gained since my fast ended.  Given the food in my system and the fact that I've been building muscle working a house with a friend (http://newoldthompsonhouse.blogspot.com/) I'm happy with that.  I had mass cravings for nuts and am still trying to stay away from carbs and eating lots of meat.  I cheated last weekend and had mexican food- TWICE!  Chicken fried chimichangas with nacho sauce and all the chips and salsa I can eat!  Woot!  Bring it on!
Spiritually, its been up and down.  I'm  more in tune with God now.  I've felt him leading me and as soon as I know exactly where, I'll let you know.  I am more aware of not wanting to spend time with him as opposed to my usual forgetting about him.  I guess that's good in a way.  I'm a sinful creature in the midst of sanctification, he's working on me.
I sense his presence in the spring time air!  Oh how I love to walk to the pastures at my friend's house and just look at the beauty.  I always wish I was in some awesome old dress and there were no cars and I had to go home and churn butter.  I'm odd, I know.
That's all for now!